So today I went to see my radiologist all ready to hear the words that my bone marrow was full of cancer (because that’s what usually happens when I come back from having treatment in Germany).
But that wasn’t what he said. He said everything is stable but your BRAIN IS BLEEDING!
Really? Seriously? WTF?
Do you have headaches? Well, yes, actually I had one this morning.
I’m going to send you to have an urgent brain MRI. Hopefully you will get one some time next week. But if you have any more headaches, call me.
Forget that shit. If I wake up and have another headache I’m going to check myself into Emergency where I will have a scan done right then and there. And what if I don’t wake up? Should I be telling my daughter that if I don’t wake up tomorrow, to call for an ambulance. That will probably freak her out.
My radiation Dr. had me do some tests to see how coordinated I was. Hey, this reminds me of when I had a stroke”, I told him. “Let me guess, is the area I’m bleeding in happen to be in the right cerebellum?” “Yes,” he answered, a bit shocked. “Well, that’s where I have a hemangioma”, I told him. “Where did you have that scan done?” he asked. “Right here”, I told him, “In April 2010”. He disappeared for a moment and found my scan on the computer and said that made him feel a little bit better. But then he also asked why wasn’t this picked up before?
I sure don’t have the answer to that. But here is my question. If my scan was done on December 23rd and it was now December 28, why the heck didn’t anyone phone me and tell me before now? Honestly if my brain was bleeding all that time, I probably should have been dead by now. But I’m not dead. I am very much alive. And therefore I am not going to panic about it because that serves no purpose. When this passes, this is going on record as another time there was a mistake. That will be mistake #6. But who’s counting?
So is my brain bleeding or is this something that’s been there a while? Tune in to the saga next week when I go for my MRI.